Its 1250am.
Its raining outside and I have my 11 week old son huddled on my chest like a Koala.
Our home is silent.
A rare occurance in this house and whats even rarer?
Its finally silent in my head.
The humming if a 3 day old headache is slowely fading...
Regardless of how tired I may be tomorrow I feel I need to sit here in the moment. Who knows where my head will be at tomorrow. I hope I dont have to call my husband back home from work...again.
I just want to be able to trust myself with my boys.
The silence fades...
And is replaced by tears.
The humming is coming back....
Part of me cant wait to see this psychologist for the first time next week.
The other part is so scared...
Hugs to you honey.. Will look forward to following your journey with you.. I am sure I can relate to alot of things you are going through. The path we are given sometimes is rocky indeed.. But nothing is ever impossible and what weakens us at first only strengthens us in the long term. Xx Lauren
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